Meaning of Life- Thoughts about Suicide
I once threw the question to God, "what is the meaning of life?" The answer I received in my heart was- "to live".
I was happy with the answer because it meant there must be a purpose to living. If you are have thoughts about suicide may need to know the purpose of why you are here. You may need to know what the meaning of your life is. The purpose of life is to live. To live in order to learn to love, to melt in love and to eventually return home one day, to your divine home in God's love. This planet is nothing but a classroom (in a school of many classrooms), for your soul to graduate by learning to love on your way home to God. Eventually you learn to love in all situations of life (in good situations and difficult situations) until one day you are one with God in heaven like a wave on the ocean.
My experience with the meaning of life, negative energy and thoughts about suicide
One time after a bad day I was sitting on the bus thinking that my life is really hard and tough. I was thinking, I really hate my life and that if I was to die it would be a big relief. My life just seemed like suffering.
Negative feelings and thoughts can come and go. They are just illusions. You can have fun with them and laugh when they come, or even when the worst happens. One day it may seem like things are too much to handle and that there is no way out, but it is just an illusion. It will pass by even if it is slow moving like a black cloud. You just need faith and patience. Although you may feel trapped, stuck and hurt like there is no way out- you will definitely find happiness eventually with a little faith and strength.
When I was sitting on the bus dealing with these negative thoughts and being strong, someone else at the very same time also experienced similar thoughts about life and suicide, except that person committed suicide the next morning. This was the partner of one of my work colleagues. The same type of negative thoughts about life and suicide was playing on him also. But his purpose and meaning of life was not strong enough and he could see no other way out. It was quite shocking for all of us, as we heard how he hung himself. I did some prayers him and his family.
What is the meaning of life?
To live and experience, and above all to learn to love, anything and everything in all situations- is the goal of life. Life is a challenge of learning to love. Can you pass the test? The negative thoughts on the bus were good because it helped me to realize my true self. We are a part of God, and God is pure love. How does pure love act in these situations? It just Loves- is happy whatever happens. Love is God. Love has the capacity to dissolve and purify. Love sets you free.
That person who committed suicide lost out on valuable lessons of love because he was not strong enough and did not have enough faith and belief in God.
Difficult and negative situations come and go all the time. It is how you think and handle them that makes the difference. There is always a way to be happy. With acceptance you can be happy whatever happens. When the worst things go wrong I usually just laugh to myself. The secret is not to get hurt. It is only the hurt that is the problem, not the actual stuff that is happening to us. Normally you can take anything that is bad and find the good in it.
Think of your problems as being sent by God, as a divine play to teach you something. This is completely true. I know exactly where my problems come from and I know how to handle them, with love. All the stuff that happens in my life that I perceive to be bad is actually a blessing in disguise and very loving. It is fun. So be free and happy. In the big scheme of things, everything is perfect and all is well.
