Alcohol Anxiety
Damaging effects and causes of alcohol anxiety and depression
If you have any serious problems, anxiety or depression in your life... if you are unhappy... if you are lost... if you feel helpless... if you are not grounded in love with your family and relationships... then you should not touch alcohol. It may amplify negative states and override healthy brain chemistry. Your whole brain may become contaminated with negative drunken states of alcohol anxiety and depression.
I have personally experienced the damaging effects of alcohol in my life when I was a teenager. The first time I got drunk was when I was 8 years old. I used to sneak alcohol out of the house and get drunk with my friends in my teens. I used to have a shot of brandy before going out the house everyday. When I was 14 years old I first got served in a pub. By the age of 15 I could easily out-drink a fully-grown adult.
In my early years it was fun. But alcohol became a form of rebellion. It was also a way to escape reality, the problems and pains of my life. But unfortunately alcoholism led me into even more anxiety. As a teenager I used to get into fights and wrestle people for entertainment. Because love was missing I felt dead inside, and feeling physical pain helped me feel alive. I used to get people to hit me, to show how strong I was. We used to smash things over each others heads. One time I jumped out of an attic roof window for attention. So after realising my need for love, I decided to stop fighting and start loving instead.
One time I was listening to the radio and a song, Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers came on. The chorus is, "I need your Love, I need your Love", in a heartfelt way. I was thinking, that’s a beautiful song. It made me realize that I really needed Love. How wonderful it would be if somebody really Loved me. I then started to imagine people just Loving me, how healing that would be to feel Love. I realised that it’s okay to feel vulnerable, and now as a teenager it was time for me to stop alcoholism.
Alcoholism to rebel against a bad culture
Teenagers may drink to enjoy themselves, because they may not really get to do that in their everyday life. People may go out and drink for adventure and excitement, because their work, culture and everyday life may be boring. People may drink to laugh and unleash their emotions, because their work, culture, family and everyday life may suppress these.
For me the negative aspects of alcoholism as a teenager far outweighed the positive. Because of my drinking I became very unhealthy, put on a lot of weight and began to develop high blood pressure.
Now that I’ve really purified my body and mind through meditation and yoga techniques, I almost feel incapable of drinking alcohol. It brings back too many bad feelings. A while back I drank some alcohol at a nightclub. After the initial hangover (the feeling of my body recovering from being poisoned), I could feel it in my body for over a week. This is because my liver is now purified. I also love pure consciousness, awareness and clarity in my life. But drinking alcohol seems to scramble this. Therefore I feel that it is more healthy for me not to drink.
Purification drinks are a good way of cleansing the body (especially the Liver). Also drinking lots of water is important for purifying your being. Water allows you to wash out every trace of alcoholism, cannabis and toxins on a physical level, but also mental/emotional toxins. Drinking lots of water helps heal you and wash out spiritual "illusions" too. A healthy Diet is essential.
