I then continued to experience some wonderful dreaming.  It was complete lucid dreaming for several hours. Complete awareness and conscious dreaming- in and out of different astral universes, alternating between becoming physically conscious of my body and then back through a myriad of different worlds again.

I realized that there is no difference between these infinite astral worlds, and what we call reality here on this planet. It was as real as what we experience as real physical life, only I had a better quality of life. More freedom to manipulate, change and transcend different realities.

I was using a technique called, “quasi-reality”. I have never heard of this term before, and never even heard of the word “quasi” before. I could not wait to Google it when I woke up from my dreaming experience, as the name was somehow intuitively discovered or given during my experience. I did not find much on Google though.

Quasi by dictionary definition means something like, having a likeness/resemblance to  reality. But then we have to ask ourselves what is reality? Are we talking about the absolute reality? Is anything in our physical word that we perceive actually reality, or is it just another dream?

Reality is often defined by dictionary definition as, “the totality of all things possessing actuality, existence, or essence”, or “the quality or state of being actual or true”.  So maybe God is the absolute reality?

The technique of “quasi-reality” involved being able to manipulate, change and transcend my reality, and move through one level of universe to the other- changing the reality, transcending and traveling through different spheres and experiences whenever and where ever I decided.

It was like shuffling the cards of reality, in search for more bliss, greater spheres of more intense peace, happiness, fun, and adventure- maybe in search of the true reality.  At the time I assumed quasi was something to do with the word quarter, as my technique involved dividing and breaking up my perception of reality into four horizontal sections and pulling out one of the sections of a puzzle, which allowed me to manipulate and change my reality for the better, or transcend it into another realm altogether. It was the ability to travel.

I managed to travel and change my experience at ease, and had full control and conscious awareness over my experiences. I went from hanging out with a spiritual friend in a beautiful environment like it was real life, to attending a meeting at a hospital,  giving consumer advice to an irate customer, to traveling on a roller-coaster ride, switching environments and experiencing something new whenever I fancied a change using the technique and my body a central hub or base for coming back to physical reality.

I chose to travel into more experiences, searching for greater bliss and peace- and generally had better quality experiences and adventures than my present mundane life here on earth presently has to offer.

In light of all the fully conscious (like being in a fantasy movie) experiences, I realized how much I have allowed myself to become imprisoned in my current state of physical life, compared to all the adventures and freedom out there in real life, away from physical earth. I experienced how my physical life and body is a burden with its limitations of travel, eating and following time (watches) and deadlines that we find in life, and the boring qualities of being in mundane and life situations and wrong jobs.

I nearly laughed to think that my life really is no life at all- I have no real quality of life or adventure and freedom. I have allowed myself to be enslaved, to be a prisoner and a failure, compared to the infinite life out there in other realms and universes, and at some stage perhaps oneness with God and an eternal life in God within realms of love. Referring to my present life I asked myself, “how did I manage to get myself into such mess?”,  like being in a prison cell?

But then I realized that this is my lesson, to free myself in this physical life by clearing up my life to become strong and free and live my life how I wish to live it for eternity and to live my life in a way that fulfills all my dreams.

I perceived my physical life to be like a basement full of junk that I need to clean out, which I should give my full attention and efforts to. There should be no avoiding real life lessons. I know what I need to do to progress now and be free- and that is real solid useful physical work.

All these dream worlds and universes, although they were better than my current state of life here, I believe they were still far away from God.  Some of the worlds were there to reflect my inner states and ego. They were mirrors of my current problems, fears, and anxieties from within- but in astral realms I had more freedom to live my dreams and create the reality and experiences that I needed and wanted.  I had freedom to move on.

It is all about internal development. As I change inside (as I spiritually develop), I believe my reality and environment must also adapt to accommodate my higher vibrations. Or alternately a change of  environmental is needed. I change and become higher in vibration until oneness with God.

If astral worlds are the same as this physical world,  then maybe I can change my own experience of the physical world in the same way as I did in my dreams?

By shuffling my own cards of reality, by moving to a new country, a new job, a new and different environment, with new people, developing new skills, and having new adventures- then I can progress spiritually like I did in my dreams and clear out my basement of junk and release myself from prison.

I woke up with a new knowledge and happiness about infinity and life. I also realized that our experiences of physical life is often quite ridiculous and wrong, including our “expectations” about anything in life and what might happen in the future or any fears and limitations that prevent a happy and loving existence.

It is also interesting to note, that I once asked a God-realized person if he ever did astral traveling, and he said that he no longer has an astral body. These astral and physical universes may only be for those who still have ego.

Let the deck of life be shuffled.

The greatest benefit of my visit was personal spiritual guidance that would enable me to change my life, in order to have a powerful loving, spiritual, free and happy life. This included many personal tips about life and personal relationships, from having a more direct approach with women, to the importance of useful work. He helped clear up a lot of illusions I had about life and spirituality. The whole trip was a very fun, loving and challenging adventure- from the flights, hotels, the people I met and the paradise of being with Hans on the beach next to the pacific ocean. It definitely felt like Christmas in my heart.

Hans suggested applying for a visa to Canada and doing some jobs in forestry such as tree planting to prepare for a loving, free and useful life. Spending a year in Canada had actually been a desire of mine. A friend of had once spent a year living and working in Canada, and it had a wonderful effect on his life- especially to have visited, lived and worked in a variety of different countries.

I did a lot of preparations for tree planting, such as going to the gym and doing gardening work to prepare physically for the challenge of tree planting in spring. Unfortunately my visa did not come in time for spring. I then decided to go to India to complete a 5 year spiritual process. I felt I did not want to miss out on any spiritual experiences.

However I made some mistakes, and especially in an article I wrote about my visit to the Philippines. I got a lot of data and facts mixed up about different people, stories and events. The article also reflected my spiritual confusion. Confusion about myself, past lives, my then present confusing spiritual situation, and a confusion of different spiritual traditions.

The article focused on seeing things in a funny perspective and was spiritually immature. It may have offended some people and may have been a personal, legal and spiritual liability for others including myself. This resulted in some people loosing trust in me.

I learned of the importance of not interpreting teachings, unless fully God-realized. This is because until we become God-realized we only have small pieces of the jigsaw. We should not publish, talk or chit chat about spiritual teachings out of context. I also made a mistake by publishing a commentary on bible quotes, which could have contributed towards spreading misleading information about God and religion.

My failure to pick up on the hints given to correct all this may have contributed towards being kicked out of the cyberspace ashram facebook group. Those who are one with God are often those who create original texts in their own language, and avoid adding their own interpretations, comments and ideas on top of existing spiritual teachings.

I risked being a dangerous web publisher. By creating possible damage to mankind or creation by spreading wrong teachings which could create the karma for me to correct all damage done.

To receive discipline/criticism from a God-realized person may actually be a lucky opportunity. A lot of criticism hit my ego very hard. But now I see all that was said was actually very kind and loving. I am happy to have another chance at life, and make life loving and happy for myself and all. Words of criticism although seemingly razor sharp or harsh to my ego, could have saved me millions of years in karma and mistakes. The key is to accept eternal liability and responsibility for anything and everything we write and do in life. All mistakes have to be corrected at our own time and expense.

All have the same opportunities, and my spiritual progress and success in no way depends on any type of group membership. But I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to all those who’s names, facts and stories I mixed up. I would like to spend loving time with you, and for us to help each other spiritually in loving work activities. I would like to restore your trust in me.

I have learned a valuable lesson about staying within my limits. We sometimes have to exceed our limits in order to know our limits, and I feel that is what I have successfully done.

The best way to clarify any distorted perception or confusion may be to work and travel in many different countries across the world by doing useful and helpful physical work. I now have my visa and will be living and working abroad from spring in order to start my REAL spiritual life and work. Loving work is like the base of a cake, and meditation is like the icing on the cake.

For my preparation for Christmas blessings this year, I have done a lot of helping work and preparations for tree planting in Canada. I am also spending lots of loving time with family and parents to get peace with them as much as possible, as this could be my last Christmas I spend with them. I may spend the rest of my happy helping future life as a foreigner.

I never knew how to take advantage of such opportunities before, or how easy it is to get a working holiday visa to another country. I never knew of opportunities like tree planting before.

An important focus of my preparation has involved getting out of debt. I am now just out of debt and will have enough money saved to travel to Canada by spring.

New work opportunities may come by merit. The more helping and useful I am, the more opportunities become available. I am aware of how nearly everything important is sent or arranged by God.

I have also made loving Christmas preparations by changing where I live to a peaceful and loving environment. I am now close enough to my work, to be able to spend up to 40 minutes a day walking into work and then back again. This combined with growing and eating my own organic food has significantly improved the quality of my health and fitness. As a result I have a good immune system and am not bothered by colds anymore. While other people suffer many days with colds, for me a cold may last up to as little as 5 minutes. There are many other benefits I have gained from organic gardening:

• Spending time, enjoying and improving my relationship with healing nature
• Healthy exercise and living
• Provide all my own vegetables
• Spend quality time with loving family and friends
• Learning about nature and God
• Learning about the cycles of life and nature, such as the different seasons of the year and different plants
• Hugging trees and kissing roses
• Learning to become more pure and loving towards nature
• Gaining a sense of responsibility and achievement towards a worthy cause
• Creating something of lasting value as a Christmas gift to others

When your belief system becomes challenged, it can be difficult sometimes. But we are all prisoners to our cultural programming and beliefs.

The only true judge of anything- what is best for you- is your own heart. It is always a good idea to follow your heart as it always leads in the direction of your soul. Your heart is your best intuition for determining what is right and what is wrong, where to go, and how to discriminate between what is true and what is false.

The truth is always hidden in your heart, and your soul is the truth. Pray to God.

I wish you all the love, fun, happiness and above all- freedom.

Soon it will be Christmas time, a very auspicious time for getting in touch with Love and making Love your only goal in life. May Love set you free.

Lots of Love,

James

Recently I have been fully engrossed in my spiritual mediation process and I have been treating life as just an illusion. Most of my free time is dedicated to austerities. This is good because it means I want enlightenment and oneness with God.

However this does not mean I have to neglect my life and choose one or other. One of the goals is to make my whole life a part of my spirituality. There is no reason that I can not live my life happy and to the full. So far I have been ignoring my life and not taking it as serious as I should. I envy people who have the freedom to live in India and dedicate their time and life to spirituality. But now I have got to wake up from that illusion.

Wake up call

In real physical life your job= your love. Your work is strongly related to your love life. If your love is not flowing in your work then it is impossible to truly fall in love. I believe a man should not put his weakness into a womans heart. A woman can not be truly happy in a relationship with a man who does office work/ administration/ management or boring government jobs. A man has to do a real job that creates real useful products or services that meet true and basic needs- to become a man of Love.

A man should be a strong foundation for supporting a family. When a man has a strong job and foundation with skills and qualifications to find work anywhere at anytime- then a woman can easily fall in Love. Subconsciously a woman likes to feel secure that this person can father her babies and take care of her-to provide food, love and shelter to make happy.

I feel I do not have permission to fall in Love, until I develop a strong foundation in life. Jesus has thrown some energy at me. His message is, “you can not put your weakness into a womans heart”. It is my duty to change my work. I am looking to change my career /job.

But where do I start? I am currently looking at my past experience and qualifications. My education, qualifications and skills are in psychology, publishing, design; and radio and video production.

My Goals

• My goal is to become a symbol of HIs Love.
• Ultimately to become one with God.
• My career goal is do something I love in total freedom.
• Become a spiritual healer, councilor or teacher.
• To be strong and free in life.
• Have a happy life and family.
• Live in excellent vastu.
• Bring spirituality to the world through media, such as publishing and radio.

A person does not have permission to take spirituality to Radio or TV until at least Nirvikalpa Samadhi is achieved- a breathless state of God union.

What should I have done? What mistakes can you avoid?

I feel that I should have avoided mistakes such as going for short cuts in life, easy money schemes, looking for easy work or avoiding real life work. I should have avoided laziness and created or offered real value in my life in terms of my job, skills and qualifications.

I feel I have wasted 7 years of my professional life. Instead of going to college or university I could have saved the money together and worked and traveled around the world before settling down to do an apprenticeship or scholarships to gain real experience and qualifications in a chosen field. When I left school I should have gone straight into a real life job, like construction worker, engineer or mechanic for instance. True happiness in life is a result of being strong and independent doing a job that is useful. Your job is your Love. When a man is happy and strong he is then qualified to enter a proper relationship and have a family.

If I had been more wise and avoided mistakes… if I had planed for a happy spiritual working life in my five year development plan… if I had worked to be qualified and gained useful skills and qualifications for an anxiety free life, then I would certainly be married with children by now.

My five year career development plan

My five year plan is to have a family and to be strong in life- in terms of the work that I do. In the next few months I will be researching job areas to find real work to do that will enable me to be all that I can be and provide for a family. I might take night classes to become a plumber for instance.

I shall be growing my website to reach people who are suffering, and really work for the people. But the bottom line is, when I go to work it has to be a real job, like counseling, healing, farmer or construction worker etc. If necessary it will have to be a lower salary and I will have to reduce any spending costs. This is a price I am considering for happiness. Hopefully I will get a good monetary return for the quality and usefulness of my work.

I hope that you can learn form my mistakes when it comes to developing your 5 year career development plan and aim for a real life happy job and career for the spiritual happiness of your family. Maybe you can avoid wasting years of your life by going to university. Or maybe make a headstart in life when you finish school or college and get into some useful work.